Ups and downs

Ainda não sei se prefiro os dias que começam a correr mal assim que acordo ou os que correm bem até meio, me enchem de expectativas e, depois, pior não podia ser.
Faltam 6 dias, 6 míseros dias, e depois? Acabou-se?
Mas ainda nem sequer me consigo controlar...

I should be happy that you're in a better place now but I cannot choose but weep to think they would lay you in the cold ground this should be gettng better with time but it isn't, or maybe it's just to soon and i'm too selfish for wanting to just get over it sometimes, but i know i'll never let go of you, i can't.
I know that you can see me, doesn't matter where you are, i can feel you here and i know that i have to get through this in order to feel in peace, with you and with me.

Thank you for everything, for what you were and are,

xo