New year's resolutions

Almost starting a new year, an age maybe.It's about time to stop making resolutions and really start making stuff for real.
I always say i had enough and end up doing the same things, falling in the same circles but now, i guess the only difference is that i really want it to end this time. Maybe i had enough by now, of this part of me. There's nothing left of me, just because i'm a whole now. I've fallen only God knows how many times, i've done things wrong over and over again, took too much for granted when I should already know that there's nothing i really can rely on truthly, but God and his mercy.
Yes, i do belive in destiny, i do belive there's all meant to be, but we all have to move on, make changes 'cause i can't expect things to start falling of the sky.
I have to start remembering the good stuff, respect and learn with the bad parts but lock these both in some safe place in my mind and send the key away. Belive that when i'm not so sure about things i have to stop thinging about them so much, there's no worth in thinking too much, it's a waste of time really. No more shadows this time, no more old feelings, this time around i'll do what i can to be a new technical person about it all...But still i have a few days left to learn to say 'cya, better next time' and still, here i am, making resolutions all over again.
From enside, out.

'Je ne suis pas comme, come, comme toi'